i've been trying to change the way i look for like ever now, and i can't get it to work. for some reason i keep gaining the weight, i keep getting fatter. i can't take it. i'm trying so hard, and i want to look good for my senior pics. but i can't. i hate going places anymore cause i don't want people to see how much of a cow i am. i can't handle it. nothing works. most of the time i just want to kill myself. i wish there was a way, eating healthier, and doing regular exercises, that doesn't help cause i've been doing that for a long time. i'm still gaining weight. i've gained 50lbs. i wish i was dead. i'm so sick of this body.
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